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To those individuals who loathe reality Clueless about originality and or Pampered in Lala Land all their lives
STAY OUT!!!
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Judas made an oath that if things got intolerable He'd slaughter this black sheep for Juliet to remunerate Romeo's Hypocrisy of others' expectations of him, in this siren that's Lost inside the spaces of my head that I wish, I WISH An anchor would just yank this hemorrhage out & soothe it dry In this lethargic itch, I cannot always write about you I can't always grieve about everything that I've already buried deep Or want of the things that I lack of, that you could never fulfill Just coz you choose not to read the Brailles on my skin anymore Just coz you stopped trying & have left me hanging on this tree Searching for a salvage in this wreck, leaving me to drown in your SOS Even tho you hardly show up, Do you think it's enough to keep me Contained from one more casualty?
In this lie that I'm preserved in, I make sure that I'm well comforted inside This bubble that you can not destruct with your senselessness or Drain more of what I don't have until there is nothing left of me Every day I crucify myself for you but nothing I do is good enough for your insensitivity All the while, adding more insults to injuries of this doll you threw in the corners Whenever you found better things to do without me on your spare time You don't know me at all when you think that I'm still the same person you Stripped off to look for a better savior beneath these dirty sheets just to resolve us Well now It's your turn to stand where I used to wait & burn Along w/ All the other lil things you used to believed in that still mean so much to me But so lil to you inspite of your miseries, you've already swindled our rings to the phantom In this love that I believed in so much w/ my everything hear me scream that it's over, IT'S OVER Over and over again from the top of my voice thru the spaces of my jade, I died But I will learn to stitch this gangrene that only you could gratify But can you hold my hand without breaking me into millions of pieces? Coz I know you can't.
And He says that he loves me and bet on life that he will stay forever But what does it matter when he writes cupids with her name still on it? So I slit my hands up each time I touch you coz I feel that it's all in the rebound But when are you gonna make up your mind? When are you gonna Pull yourself out of this black hole that you sunk in coz of their rejects Just as they've suffocated me once coz I'll always remind you that I'll always want You near but you say her hair was long & soft & you missed her embrace So I feel ugly and camouflaged again coz you always desire to desecate their infected cadavers Well see if you could decipher this pi I throw at you from the bottom of my heart coz There are pieces of me that you've never seen beyond all this reverie and my constant spacing out Of nowhere whenever your personality changes to suit mine against your philosophies Maybe she’s just pieces of me that you've never possessed before because of her puerility but You can't judge me coz I know you better than you bleed but I just limit myself to you coz you're gullible And jaded, I could just pretend that you love me & set the night so easy & lose all sense of Fear But what do I need to expect from this when you can't even hold me w/o digging into their surfaced graves? Just sometimes I think I best disappear before the skid marks show in this one-way, off-course tangent I always end up limping in.
Guess it was always a baby blue to you but I'm an AMETHYST If you've known me better I am insecured, so I don't know why you magnify of another colour But see what you think of me now when I say I don't give about playing Jesus anymore And All your Eve could just scorch in the furnaced sulfur for being loose canines So I'm not going to deal this dice for you when I know I'll always be flat defeated and Your dogs' names will always still remain on your plaque coz if someone has to lose, I don't want to play I can not go there again, tho just when I thought I ran into Gabriel but clearly You’ve been battered and spat by these harlots and gave the rest of us Decents a tainted name So I tried to intrude through the little holes in your veins & challenged this Coz I never really knew how to move you but nothing came, but excuse me for being here When I shouldn't be so where are your so-called goddesses now when you need saving? I can’t just leave you fucked in their lustful craving of ambrosia like offerings for their BS' So I cupped my face for the injustice and paid attention to the message in my dreams to Help me recuperate from this cyclic taboo I'm blessed with But what does it take for one to feel me? What does it take for you to catch my fall? You always yearn to find me but I’m just here behind you in the corner of your eyes observing Like you can't grasp onto my ashes or taste the rain from this drought w/o holding onto their Obituary Tho I’ve seen you, you know me well but I don’t know how to connect, so I disconnect and With the mind constantly in the daze of why it could've never been coz I've fallen While I'm still waiting here for somebody to translate this line in my book w/ your name on it Though aside from all the chapters written, I see that I'm only a fragmented sentence of your story But I'm not making a name, so I don't care how You satisfy that crave of yours, just don't get me involve w/ Your guilt or your Wall of Trophies coz that's not enough to keep me contained from One more casualty, with you.
So I said, Judas repent from yourself so these tattoos on me would disappear & leave me be Coz I certainly will not trade in my clipped wings for your trampoline as this Amnesia sinks thru This inexplicable vacuum that I want to defecate because the acid stench is torturing but I just can't forget of the things you never said on days like these. starts me thinking what I really Am Only to find that you're the droned voice inside my head & the butterfly fluttering in the midst of combustion While I drink this vile of venom to cure these scabs seem to take me straight off to insomnia and I forget how I am, who I am, why I am and what the hell am I doing here decomposing? Coz I've had it with these dosages I depend on, I've had it w/ this pulling of something into myself Just to silence this raving rage that's oozing inside me but I can't always wish to go home and sleep And hope that tomorrow will bring me the gratitude that I deserve of coz really Who am I kidding but myself? But this feeling, I hate this hanging latch clasped tightly At the edge of my soul that Magdalene pierced thru Just coz I'm anomalous.
Listen, I want you to stay here with me
Is that OK?
----------------------------------------------- [PS. Shouts to: Mikey, V., Aunty, Paniang, Shan, Jai, Aaron and Patrick]
